Depressed? Not One Bit.

by DShan on July 29, 2010

Earlier this week I had a dear friend ask me if I was depressed.

Word around town was of concern, and surprisingly informed by the tone of my blog posts this month, of which I think there are a grand total of two.

I laughed and immediately realized that I’d made a lot of the idea that I don’t have friends in Vancouver, which is both untrue and a sentiment that I now realize is hard to address flippantly, especially when you have people who actually use your blog to try and get some insight into what the hell your life is like on the other side of the continent.

Depressed?  No.

Not at all, actually.

It was almost funny and jolting to have that be one of the reasons he’d hoped to connect on Skype because I’d literally been walking home from work and thinking about how many amazing people I’ve met in this city, and how the way they are amazing is in the way some people go well beyond themselves to make others feel welcome.  The way people have the capacity to see beyond themselves and notice you.

People surprise you, and if you stop for a second you’ll realize it happens often.

Vancouver is gorgeous right now, like an island paradise that’s unaware of anything but a state of perfectness.  Warm, breezy air, clear turquoise skies draped over ragged mountains rising up in the glory of nature’s prowess.

You can see the world in a square mile here, between the water and the sky.

I’m not depressed, and in fact I’m quite happy, and I’m overcome with an ambition…an urgency…and if I had a wish it would be that the inertia subside a bit and let me sit in the sun and compose my thoughts more regularly.

Things are good.  Things kind of kick ass, honestly.

How about you?

That’s not a rhetorical question.

  • Caroline
    If you are the DShan who left a message regarding food provenance on Thyme Supper Club yesterday, I'm afraid my website failed to record your email address properly and I couldn't drop you a line as you requested. I've left a comment in reply on the site.

    http://www.thyme-supperclub.com/blog-posts/food-and-shopping-philosophy

    All the best,
    Caroline
  • Jamie Varon
    "...because I’d literally been walking home from work and thinking about how many amazing people I’ve met in this city, and how the way they are amazing is in the way some people go well beyond themselves to make others feel welcome. The way people have the capacity to see beyond themselves and notice you."

    Amazing writing. As always.
  • Pshaw look who's talkin.
  • the future Mrs. Kanafani
    Got your msg. loved it. love you. You are still my Best Friend.
  • I love you so much Mrs. Kanafani, so much. So so much. You're my Best
    Friend (capitals and all) too. I'm even going to start teaching myself how
    to spell Kanafani...it's actually pretty easy.
  • I think it's really strange how a blog can reveal some of your most private thoughts and feelings (if one chooses to write about such things) and it gives readers a sense of knowing who you are. Reality is, you can't know someone wholly by their writing. You just can't. You can know them intimately. You can know their feelings on certain things or at certain moments, but you can't know them completely. I forget this sometimes, my readers forget this sometimes. I write about very personal stuff, usually pretty depressing stuff, but I am one happy chick - wouldn't know it from my writing though. At least we know people are not only reading, but caring about the person behind the writing, enough to reach out to us. That's why blogging is awesome.
  • Ronda, well said. If you're mindnumbingly bored you should find my post
    called "The Blogger Is Not Real" - it's right in the same wheelhouse as your
    thoughts below:)

    You're so right.
  • Good to hear you're well.

    Me? Eh, could be better. But I'm not going to let it get to me.
  • Nico, am I gonna have to come to LA and throw a party in your honor? Because
    someone should do that for all the good you offer the world.
  • Lovely to hear from you :) I'm fantastic, actually and also wishing for just a little bit of some time to soak some sun up, but it's tough when the inertia's taking you to positive places, huh?
  • It is tough when good things stack themselves on good things, right?
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